do is too much even for two person to do :-) . I am thankful to fortune that gives me a chance to know you better , to try to get close to you . And of course thank you that you want to keep contact with me and you are also interested in me like I am. Oh, I remember that I still have not told you about my work in details and in general I have not given you any special details about my life. So, I think that it is the right time for me to start and let you know about me, because I already know a lot about you, so I am grateful to you for it also. After graduating the Kiev State Pedagogical University last year, sports faculty I was at the open ways. I am the master of sport in shaping, it means that I was the Champion of Ukraine in shaping ..well , actually that fact helped me to enter the University , to get my scholarship and to graduate the University with good marks. I found job due to the specialty as the instructor in big fitness center for very rich people. Yes, we already have such centers here in Kiev. Actually I started to work there long before I graduated the University it was good for the owners to have the Champion of Ukraine as the instructor :-) . Then I left . Just it was too far from the place where I live , where I study , they also did not want to help me with my studying and I had to work when it was the time for lectures and exams . I changed the place with good recommendations and then worked in the fitness center for 5 stars hotel. Good job , at the good place , but small salary . Really . It was not even enough for me . when I also give some money for my mother and sisters mother does not work and sisters are studying. Anyway I am not complaining. No. I am writing all of it to you Rob , to see that I am the person who will do everything to change his or her life for better , he person who thinks not only about her own , but about family . By the way , I can feel your upcoming question if everything goes well between us , and we are together to create one family and I will have to leave the country .. what about my mother , sisters , brother , friends I will tell you that everything will be ok . My older sister is already in good position at good company and earns good money. Brother is graduating the University as the software engineer and he was already proposed with good job . My other younger sister is studying at school . I love my family , but in the same time , I will do anything to be with my future husband together , with my love. Now I also work as the instructor , but in other fitness center. The working shift changes often , but it is ok . I love my job because I like it , because it gives me a lot of communication with different people , because my job makes me to live healthy way of life and it is good . In the same time something tells me that I will be able to find job in your country too if we are together . right What else to tell you . Oh, you probably noticed that I have good pictures. Yes, they were my attempts in the modeling business. So, you can see them by yourself now and I hope you like what you see. But I was told that I have no big future in this kind of business and in the same time I felt that it was not mine , it was not the type of activity , job I would like to live all my life with .. Anyway, I did some photo modeling while I was studying at the university and it was some additional money for me. I liked what I did, I liked that I could bring good feelings to people who see my pictures. I hope that photography and beauty can make somebody a little higher in his/her cultural level. Of course, I have in my plans the visit into the agency, with the help of which I correspond with you. You know, I'm thinking about you, I'm trying to imagine what you are doing at your work, how you are smiling, how you talk, what eyes you have! And then I remember what a huge distance separates us, and I become sad & it is possible that we are not in so terrible situation. From the beginning we will know each other, our interests, dreams attitude to the life values. Even without seeing eyes of each other we build our relations on the confidence, sincerity, and on the most important aspects, which we feel without dependence on the distance, language barrier, and differences in culture, different economical level. Rob, I believe that there will be such day when we know that we are the parts of one another, and we will understand that we can t live without each other, we will be able to overcome all difficulties on our way (I so wait till that time and Rob, I think that if we believe, dreams turn into reality.) Can you imagine, we are looking in each other the things, which we can't find in our compatriots? You are looking for a woman, which, as it seems to me, can create friendly family, which is able to create the special atmosphere of love and understanding. Am I right? I'm looking for a person, which will appreciate me for my clear soul, faithfulness, and my possibility to give tenderness; for sincerity - to give sincerity. You know, I wanted to tell you one more thing: I have told my sisters and mother about my decision about finding someone through Internet, from other country, and mother told me that everything. what is good for me is good for her, as for sisters they wished me good luck and real love . I know that their wishes will be become true. My dear Rob, I look forward for your letters and sincerely happy when I receive them. Maybe you see me like a little girl& :-) Let the birds twitter brings to you the song of my soul. With affection, Natasha PS. Again, in the end of my letter I give the description of my picture I am sending to you today. It was made in south of Ukraine, in Crimea, when I had rest with my sisters and brother this summer. Yes, I know that the picture is not really good, but hope you like it. I also made some pictures on the beach :-) .. So, I am going to send them to you soon also.

By this time of letter 8-9 I had sent out a package. It had some gifts, money and pictures. I actually got her mailing address....This is my letter...
To: Ukrainian Tours Co. (starofukraine.com)
Sent: Sunday, October 21, 2001 4:14 PM
Subject: Re: Hello Natasha. A kind honorable gentleman...

Hello my sweet dear Natasha,

It is very sweet to hear such words. I try to reply to your letters in the same order that you have written yours. This time I will start with the end of your letter. I have mentioned before that I have sent off a package to you. It should be there in a 2-3 weeks. In it is something that will help with the cost of your letter writing. I am aware of the lifestyle of the average person in the Ukraine, very aware. I am not sure if you are aware about something that I am faced with every day. I have told my friends and family about you. They are always supportive of me and wish me well and they also welcome you with open arms. BUT, and this is a big BUT.. When a person from Canada or USA considers the possibility of finding a woman of good stature in the Ukraine or Russian, they are CONSTANTLY reminded of certain things and that is that there are not so honest people in the world and they prey on men and woman trying to find each other. On a personal level, I am reminded that even thou YOU are real, that what YOU say is real, that since you are trusting an agency that survives on you and I keeping in touch that words or translations might not be precise as intended or words might be edited in/out. On a further note, I do not us credit cards and therefore cannot send you flowers or pretty things through the agency. :( I will be sending an envelope too soon. I forgot to ad a magazine that tells of my town and in it you will find more help in it.

I DO NOT want what I said above to make you think I am skeptical. I am very optimistic. I appreciated your last letter and I understood what you were trying to say. True words are just words, but I tend to follow with action cause a man must be able to abide by what he says or he isnt a man.Kiev sounds like a splendid place. I do want to come there. I stated last letter that I started a new job, this will make it a little more difficult to get any lengthy period of time off. So if I do come to see you in the next 3-4 months it might be for a short visit. Speaking about my job is that, in the 2 weeks I have been there, I have been already promoted. This made me very happy and the job provides greater opportunity to advance further. The place I would like to call our home? I like my home to be a place of warmth and security. A place where the kids can play safely in the yard without fear of harm. A place where friends can drop by freely and feel welcome. A place that has love in every room. A place where the air smells clean and the water fresh. A place where entertainment is just a hop-skip-jump away. A place where you and I can curl up by a fire and enjoy each others company with the only sound is our slow breathing. The house I live in now is not my final home. This I know. The place I will call home will be one that WE can call home. What will be within its walls, we will call our own. It will reflect the both of us.

I hope I havent said anything that would deter you from further writings or wanting to pursue our feelings for each other further. I care about Natasha, I want to see you happy. This is my wish and I am the type of man who loves to make wishes come true.

Love xxxxx
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LETTER 7 or 8

Hello my dearest xxxxxx!
It is nice to read such words , isn’t it ? Yes, and I also feel the same when I read the beginnings of your letters , when I take and read all your letter . I have the feelings that I receive a nice surprise, I am getting so excited when I read a letter from you . How I wish to have computer at home and to be notified when by computer that there is e-mail from you in waiting for me from you . To sit and to read … But it is not possible yet and I come to the agency , ask if there is a letter from you to me , and I always find it :-) …. I take your letter , originally in English and translated in Russian . Take them and stay at the agency for a couple of minutes to read it ask for news , hoping that maybe some flowers or small gift is waiting for me … but still nothing . I tell of it because I saw several times how other women receive different flowers together with the letter from their men, but I am not complaining and not sad . I am glad knowing that there is you in this world, there are relations that grow with every day. Then I go home, and there, with pleasant music, with Chappa we read your letter. And if it is not late I write you my reply … It is good. Don’t you think xxxx ? In my previous letter I gave you little idea what I think about sex and I want to believe that my letter was not very frank and you was able to read it till the end :-). Well, you know , I think I forgot to tell you one thing words are words, but nothing can be better than practice . So, f destiny smiles to us and we are married, than I hope we will have enough time to discover and to practice what I wrote you about in my previous letter ….. But there is one more issue of practice…. I mean that now I am going to write you more about Kiev , as I promised to and I know that you really want to know more about the city where I lived all my life and it will be like my little preparation for you before your visit to Kiev … I hope you did not changed your plans as for our personal meeting … We should meet for sure and so , please be attentive and I want you to love my city as I do . So , about Kiev . It is not only à huge city it is also à city with huge history. About its history later. I want to tell you that it is hardly possible to recognize this city now. There were lots of changes in Kiev since Ukraine got the independence. The main street of Kiev, Khrestchatik, is being remodeling. Kiev always was rich in historic places to visit.Kiev is a wonderful city. I think that it is one of the most impressing cities in the world. Its most significant treasure is its numerous churches and other monuments that are proof to the gorgeousness of the Kiev Rus. Have you heard anything about this ancient civilization in the territory of Ukraine? You see there are many buildings (most of them belong to the church) that were constructed in 10-12th centuries. They are very gorgeous and amazing. One looks at them having raised his head and opened his mouth. Actually, in spring and summer churches look especially wonderful as the numerous green trees and picturesque hills of the Dnepr add to the scenery... Oh, the picture is really amazing... I wish you could ever see such a scenery... I like wandering the streets of this city. And I will take you with myself for long , long walk , we will be watching the surroundings, stopping in the little cafe over the bank of the Dnepr where it is possible to enjoy the wonderful curves and islands of this wonderful river... You know it is so large and wide that impresses a lot. I like standing near the surf line and enjoy the waves. Kiev is considered to be the largest city of Ukraine. It impresses with numerous streets that are situated on the numerous hills. And à special place in my letter I want to devote to the museums of Kiev. No, no , I won’t tell you that I am so cultured young girl that every weekend dedicate to the spending time in the museums .. It won’t be true …. Just want to tell you that there are a lot of museums here and want it or not you notice them and I even visited a couple . And there were a couple of times when I was the streets I was walking for all my life during many times and notice a sign that there is this or that museum in this building … I feel surprised … Never noticed :-) . I will try to call some of them Museum of Western and Eastern Art, Museum of Ukrainian History, Out door Museum of Ukrainian Architecture- I was there when I was at school … it is big , big place with a lot national old buildings from all over Ukraine and there are a lot of old interesting home stuff inside of them and there are a lot of people in national costumes to pose for pictures and to tell the stories …This place is mostly for tourists . I believe that nothing is changed since I was there several years ago . If you want we can go there together when you are in Kiev . is à saint place in Kiev called Caves of Monastery. I can talk about this place long hours but it is better to watch it with your own eyes. It is prominent to notice that à lot of museums and churches have been refreshed recently. They look marvelous. In Kiev there are numerous bridges and a lot of cars. There are very wide avenues that are too wide to be crossed above the ground on foot. Once it took me a whole hour to cross the street. :-) But I like to live in Kiev. Living in Kiev is enjoyment. This city is wonderful in all seasons of year. When you are walking along its streets in autumn you can enjoy not only the golden domes of churches but also golden lives of chestnuts. In winter although it is rather cold , warm atmosphere this huge city will warm you up. I won’t even tell you Rob about spring and summer time. It is impossible to reveal the true enjoyment of being in Kiev in this time of year. It seems that there are always things that remain hidden and will be revealed next time.So, that is my little story about the city where your girl is waiting for you . I know that you would like Kiev as I did …. But I still do not know a lot about the place where you live … Can you spend some time telling me more about the place …. No … not where you live now … but about the place where you dream to live , the right place for your love, for your family , for us , even if it is Moon Space Station :-) . I would love to read your dreams and maybe how you are going to make them true . Ok ?
My dear $$$, I really wait all your letters and I hope that in future I will have the possibility to receive them from you more or less regularly . I hope that one day we will meet each other. And this our personal meeting will be the result of our searches, of our sincerity and frankness. Or our desire to become closer to each other , as the result of our correspondence. It is really very wonderful that you are such person who makes me feel warm and I’m very glad that I have met you. Now I only wish you to be closer to me, and I think that in this case we will spend more time together. I think that it would be wonderful time and I believe that we will be together, that we will be family.As I have told before, we both need the correspondence to be between you and me for now it is the only mean for us to know each other and to become closer , to open our hearts to the feelings we have , to share the thoughts we have to express. But from the other side I understand and realize that it will be a long process of getting to know each other completely, there are a lot of little details, which we will know only after meeting or in the process of long correspondence. And now I am going to ask you one very important question for me now. You know that I am shy person , that it is not really easy for me to express any feelings. You know that when I write you a letter I try to be sincere and to tell you a lot in it , about everything I have for this moment to tell you . But sometimes I feel that I need help, I need care, I need a man in my life, to protect me and to tell me that “Everything will be ok. “ How I want to hear these words from you. And now, under the pressure of circumstances I had to ask you not easy and not very simple question. What is your attitude that I pay for the translations of our letters, including yours? I’m not trying to offend you but I need to know your opinion. You know it seems to me that it would be fair if we share my expenses. They are not big at all, but still tough for me. I have to know whether you help me if I need this or not. If you don’t want to answer I will understand and there is no need to worry about this, simply I’m not certainly sure that I will be able to write to you more often or to write more freely, I mean sometimes I have make shorter my thoughts anyway. I am not complaining, I am not asking for money, I just need to know what you think and how you feel about it and if you are ready to help me with it ? That is all. I send you the warmest and best wishes of mine... I have been thinking of you... and still am thinking...With kiss ,
Your Natasha .

I guess she received the package

I sent out one more letter asking why she didnt reply. Guess she got what she wanted. Hard part is, I am a nice guy. I come from an Ukraine background and wouldnt mind finding a good Ukraine or Russian lady. I realize the expense on the half of the lady and would be willing to help but now I so leary....